I don't want to do this anymore
I don't want to be hypersensitive to every single sensation that happens in my abdominal area
I don't want to be able to say off the top of my head exactly where I am in my cycle
I don't want to have to chart out my next two months to try and estimate what my cycle MIGHT look like so I can travel for some career development opportunities
I don't want to have be in limbo with my life anymore
I want to be able to have a beer at happy hour and not worry if I'm screwing something up
I don't want to do acupuncture anymore. The novelty is gone and now its just yet another medical appointment to go to.
I don't want people's pity anymore
I don't want for others to think I'm a hormonal mess
I don't want to spend loads of money that we don't have on cycles that only have a 15% chance of working. I can't let go of the fact that 15% chance of working means that there is a whopping 85% chance of it not working. If this were Vegas, I wouldn't be playing $500 hands for each round of play.
I don't want it to be just me and my husband for the rest of our lives. I want to enjoy all the things that come with raising children.
So what the heck am I supposed to do?
4 years ago